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Tian Mi De Zhe Mo / Sweet Torment
Vivian Hsu Ruo Xuan
Romanized and translated by Sherry (Sweet Dreamz) of Faithful 4ever

Qing bu yao zai ji xu gei wo
Please don't continue to give me
Tai duo yu de guan xin
So much excessive concern
Wo pa wo kuai yao qing bu zi jin
I'm afraid that I'm about to lose control of my emotions
Ji ran bu neng zai yi qi
Since we cannot be together
Qing ni bie zai kao jin
Please don't come near again
Wo pa wo kong zhi bu zhu tan xin
I'm afraid that I will lose control my greediness

Ni tian mi de zhe mo
Your sweet torment
Ba wo de ling hun tou zou
Has stolen away my soul
Zai wo yong xin guo hou
After my devotion
Chang chang yi ge ren zuo e meng
All alone, I frequently have nightmares
Ni tian mi de zhe mo
Your sweet torment
Mei xiang guo hui zhe me tong
I never thought would be this painful
Qing xiao shi zai wo de di qiu
Please vanish from my Earth
Bie rang wo zhan zai yun shang tou
Don't let me stand above the clouds
Tu ran luo hong…
Suddenly ending up with nothing

Qing ni bu yao zai ji xu xiang wo
Please don't continue to think about me
Pa hui she bu de ni
I'm afraid I will be unwilling to let you go
Jin tian de wo yi chang de leng jing
Today, I am exceptionally calm
Yi wei zi ji hen cong meng
I thought I am very intelligent
Ke yi yi kong zhi qing xu
That I can control my feelings
Fa xian ni yi zhan man le kong qi
Only to discover you're already full of air (as in air to breathe)...

Ni tian mi de zhe mo
Your sweet torment
Mei xiang duo hui zhe me tong
I never thought would be this painful
Mei you kai shi
No beginning
Mei you feng shou
No break up
Mei you ai ni
Didn't love you
Mei you ai wo
Didn''t love me

Ni shuo zui hao neng
You say that it is best
Zhi dang peng you
That we just be friends
Zhe yang gan qing geng chang jiu
That way, our relationship will last even longer
Er ni que bu dong
But you still don't understand
Wo yi shen shen de ai shang ni
I am already deeply in love with you
Xiang kao jin ni
The closer I am to you
Yu kan jian ni yu tong
The more I see you, the more it hurts

Zhen de bu yuan zhe me shuo
Really don't wanna say it like this
Ba wo wang le
Forget me

So the funeral was Wednesday. I'm mad at my oldest cousin. He was my grandfather's favorite yet he was in China (on vacation). We postponed the funeral for nearly 2 weeks just to wait for him...sent him money to come back but he didn't even make an effort. Well, I broke down and cried a lot but it seemed as though I simply ran out of tears and the knot in my chest untied and I stopped crying. The day after, for some reason, I was depressed and I didn't really wanna talk to anyone. *sigh* I hate when I get like that because none of my friends deserve it. It's something I'm working on changing. ^^;; But once again, thank to everyone for their condolences. I think that I'm finally "ok".

I hung out with two friends yesterday and I think that was the lift I needed to get all the sad stuff out of my system. We were suppose to watch a movie but then my friend didn't have proper ID (movie was rated-R)! He's 18 but he only had his school ID and of course, that girl actually cared. Haha...so then we went miniature golfing instead and man do I have mad skills. HAHA...I think I lost my golfball around the fifth hole. It was in the mulch cuz it popped out of the green so I tried to hit it out cuz ya know, I don't cheat *cough cough*. Haha..well, yeah, don't know what happened to the ball and of course, I picked a green one and everything was green. So anyway, an unfortunate kid loses their ball from the hole above and my friend covers it and we take it. So all is well until my ball falls into the rivers/ponds three times. Haha...but we got it! Finally, the third to the last hole, I hit the ball softly and it was just rolling along slowly on the green. I turn around to talk and then it's gone!!!!!!!! What the heck?! Oh, and to top that off, though they were metal clubs, I was getting like "splinters" from it! Painful...but I had tons of fun making a fool of myself. I'm sure that if it were more serious, it wouldn't have been so much fun. Then, we ran into a friend and we talked some.

So, hopefully, Sherry is back. ^_^

Though I didn't get to bed until midnight last night, I didn't sleep 12 hours! I was up and dressed before 10 am. Haha...aren't you proud of me? But yo, my cousin copied my outfit! So much for, "You and Cisy have totally different tastes in clothes". Haha..my mom is so wrong because she frequently buys what I buy.

Anyway, love you all!