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Journey
Angela Zhang Shao Han

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you...to you

Well, there can be depressing stuff I can talk about...but let's not. I truly truly love you guys. I know you don't have to read about my troubles - you have troubles of your own. I know that you may not know what to say but the fact that you take time to comfort me really touches me...so much so I can cry. Gosh, I'm so emotional! But basically, thank you, from the bottom of my heart. *big hug* Every word meant a lot to me. I guess I choose to share some of my thoughts through this blog because I find it easier...I don't know but simply getting it out helps me immensely and the fact that people who don't even know me personally actually respond, actually care, is amazing.

Alright, like I said, a light-hearted post. ^_^

So anyway, I had absolutely no classes today yet I wasn't looking forward to it. The AP government classes had a mock Senate and despite the fact that I signed up to work on the computer or be a clerk, my teacher assigned me to be a Senator - Senator Gordon Smith of Oregon, a Republican. Well, seems like he's not all that Republican, definitely has an independent streak and willing to cross party lines, which is cool. My friend called me last night and said we had to dress up but then I get to school and more than half the people aren't dressed up. -_-;; So anyway, I have absolutely no interest in politics and government (yet I took the class...go figure...I can't stop complaining and falling asleep!). So yeah, we all had to write a bill and I really didn't know what I was doing. I was on the Foreign Relations Committee so I randomly chose to write a bill to provide aid to Sudan, which is a good cause. Anyway, I really had no idea how to go about it, how much money would be needed to I decided 100 million sounds reasonable. I didn't think it would get out of the committee but surprisingly, it did and so I had to talk about it on the floor. >.< AH!!! Well, after the debate my bill stirred up, by the end, some people couldn't even remember who proposed it but it was passed and I did get support. ^_^ Thing is, we weren't serious at all. A bill that proposed a huge mobile wall at the border of Mexico, which would move and crush all the taco stands in Mexico but kill no people, was passed. Haha...and then we would annex Mexico and oh, the wall shoots anti-freeze. LOL...of course, there were other bills such as appropriating several million to kill the not quite dead yet - zombies and such. There were really funny bills about opening trade with Cuba so we can get cigars and baseball players and an anti-French bill.

You may have heard this from me at the forum before but I was talking to a friend on AIM and "love" came up and then I kinda started rambling on and on. ^^;;

Friend: ugh
Friend: well, i found out that xxx likes some other dude
Me: wah? didn't she say that she likes you?
Friend: yeah
Friend: but its complicated
Friend: she doesnt wanna like me, since we are really good friends
Me: see, i never truly understand that
Me: i mean, i understand that it could ruin a friendship
Me: and so you don't wanna do that.....but if you like someone then you like them.....not exactly something you can control like a light switch
Me: and if you can just like someone else, then your feelings really weren't that strong for the first person......
Me: iunno..is it possible to like 2 people at once? to me, if you truly like someone, you can't turn around and like someone else just like that....
Me: just my opinion..now i'm blabbing and not helping you at all
Me: sorry
Friend: well..we do that sometimes
Friend: we distance ourselves
Friend: and we dont talk to eachother for like...a month
Friend: its messed
Friend: haha
Me: well yeah...i understand that...but it always makes mewonder when someone tells me they like someone...and then turn around and like someone else
Me: cuz to me, you don't truly like them then......
Friend: i hear ya
Me: even if you don't wanna like the person you claim to like.....the feeling is there......so if you can just toss it aside and like someone else..then..iunno
Me: it always confuses me.......
Me: i think i had this convo with dave before......
Me: haha
Me: or was it you?
Friend: maybe both
Me: but yeah..sometimes i think its just me
Friend: no, cuz i get confused too
Me: cuz it seems like most people can jump from one person to another so fast
Friend: i cant
Me: iunno..i guess i'm the kind of girl who sticks to her guy (if she had one)
Me: like...if i like a person...then i LIKE them.....
Friend: me too
Me: i may not want to but it doesn't mean i can forget and move on
Me: iunno...
Friend: like...lxxx and dxxx
Me: i simply don't understand how you can like more than 1 person at once
Friend: can meet a girl and go out with her the same
Friend: day
Friend: it takes me like....6 months before i even think abou tit
Friend: about it*
Me: "love"...so complicated
Me: maybe i take it too seriously.....
Me: but that's just me....other people have their own views and beliefs
Friend: scary thing is...we have the same viewpoint basicaly
Friend: gosh
Me: lol
Me: well, it's good to know i'm not the only one....and not too traditional, conservative, etc. etc.
Friend: im madd tradtitional cuz of how i was raised
Friend: but i have to go
Friend: lil tty tonight
Friend: peaCe
Friend: zai jian


And in accordance with the convo, I took the quiz that Justine posted the other day and I think it supports my views:
eXpressive: 6/10
Practical: 8/10
Physical: 2/10
Giver: 5/10

You are a XPIT--Expressive Practical Intellectual Taker. This makes you a Manager.

You are cool, thoughtful and intelligent. Your approach and your sense of humor are under-the-radar, your charm is undeniable. You keep everything under control. You have distinctive vocal mannerisms. You may not have much interest in approaching strangers, but when you do, you are successful.

You will probably end up with someone beautiful, fascinating and off-balance. While your partner may steal the limelight, it's you that keeps things running smoothly and provides stability in your relationship. If you are with someone as contemplative and hard-headed as you, you can have a tough time.

Your greatest asset is that you tackle conflict as it rises -- you don't ignore it and let it brew. If you have a partner that *does* let it brew, it will make you crazy! You can find yourself fighting for two -- trying to anticipate your partner's needs and draw their feelings out -- which is exhausting and, well, not your job.

You would never cheat. You would make an excellent spouse. When your spouse's friends met you, they would think, "Crap, why couldn't I get that one?"

Of the 227355 people who have taken this quiz, 6.2 % are this type.


So I basically just wanted to "brighten" things up again by making a happier post...turned out longer than I had wanted.