Currently reading: Heartbreak Hotel by i n n o c e n c e (aka Lee)
Currently listening: Nickelback - Someday
Currently eating: Nothing

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Tu Ran Lei Le/Suddenly Fatigued
JJ Lin
Romanized and translated by Sherry @ lychee.azn.nu


Your just another part of me, oh...

Your just another part of me, oh

Chi fan qi dao shui le　wo kai che kai dao sha le
I fell asleep eating, I went crazy driving
Wo kan shu kan dao ni le　kai shi huai yi wo zen me le
I saw you while reading a book, beginning to wonder what's wrong with me

Shuo hua shuo dao tu le　wo xie ge xie dao feng le
I vomited talking, I went insane writing songs
Wo ai ni ai dao mang le　tian zhi dao wo you zen me le
I've gone blind loving you, heaven knows what's wrong with me again

Bu she de　she bu de　dou fen shou le
Unwilling to part, unwilling to give up, yet separated
She bu de　bu she de　san le
Unwilling to give up, unwilling to part, broken up

Ai shi ni de　wo shi wo de　wan le
Love is yours, I am mine, it's finished

Yuan lai wo zhi shi tu ran lei le　yuan lai wo bu shuo le
So I was just suddenly fatigued, so I just didn't say so
Yuan lai wo cheng zhe cheng dao ma le　yuan lai wo bu ai le
So I had just gone numb holding up, so I didn't love

You're just another part of me, oh

Really liking JJ's music. He didn't write the lyrics to this song but it's still a good song. Haha

Well, after Lee (see tagboard...she also has a one-shot Hua Ze Lei fanfiction) mentioned my fanfiction entitled "A Song For You", a short one-shot, I decided to go back to read it. Haha...I found some tense inconsistency but overall, it's not too bad. It brought back memories of the F4 fanhood...of my crazy obsession, which was nice. I'm happy that I don't hate what I wrote. At the end of the school year, we received our writing folders that had pieces of writing we wrote since tenth grade. I went over most of it and I didn't like any of it. But speaking of my writing, I never finished the trilogy I had set out to write after positive feedback about "A Song For You". I came close though! Hahaha...I wrote one in Dao Ming Si's POV ("A Soldier For Love") but I failed to start writing the last piece from San Cai's POV.

So, out of complete boredom (what's new?), I decided to join a few more fanlistings to show my love for the things that I...well, love. Haha.

I also found another reason to love Mozilla Firefox! Gosh, to think that I was once so attached to Internet Explorer, convinced that it was the perfect browser. I installed a plug-in for Firefox called AdBlock. Finally! I no longer have to see those stupid flash ads, for example the creepy cockaroaches or spiders on some of the ads here on Blog Drive. Gone!!! I didn't like those one bit because I detest insects...A LOT. Haha...though now it messed up my layout a bit but that's just for me anyway. ^_^

I'm tempted to blog about something deeper and maybe throw in a few introspective comments but I don't know where to start and I don't think I'll be too coherent. I'll save it for another time. Haha...I think too much sometimes and I definitely worry way too much. It can definitely be a good thing as well as a bad thing. There are times when it's definitely better to take the risk rather than giving it so much thought. Well, it's a difficult habit to break. Haha

More randomness: I use "haha" a lot...maybe even too much. So far, it's appeared in every single paragraph of this entry.

Hm, I had said that I wasn't gonna post anything deep but suddenly, another topic has crept up on me. Where to start?

I am naive and quite idealistic at that.

It's probably partly because I'm so sheltered. I don't think it's a bad thing to be idealistic, so long as I'm still in touch with reality. I think my idealistic visions can be an escape and something to keep me going, something to look forward to, to work for. I know that this world is complicated yet I will never truly understand until I'm out there and as of now, I'm not. I'm still residing in the safety of my home, under the protection of my parents. It's funny though...as strict and protective as they are, they also give me a whole lot of freedom...or maybe in a way, they care but they don't. They don't usually ask who I'm hanging out with and they haven't asked for my grades in the longest time. Come to think of it, I think I was just the obedient daughter all along. I automatically tell them who I'm hanging out with most of the time and if I don't, they rarely ask. In fact, Amy rarely ever informs my parents that she's going out when she does. I also remember that I use to be the one to come home with a smile on my face and proudly present my report card to them. After all, if I did well, at least I would hear, "good job" and possibly even be rewarded. ^_~ But you know, I guess that in a way, they put a great amount of trust and confidence in us...that we won't mess up. In a way, it's a good thing but the inconsistency isn't, if you know what I mean. Wow, I quickly strayed away from the original intent of this paragraph. Good thing I caught myself before I go any further on the topic of my parents. See what my thoughts can do to me? Anyway, I shall refrain from posting much else but I will say that I think that sometimes, I think of things too simply and the world is definitely not a simple place. The thing is, I know this yet still I hold some hope that I may be right...that maybe if I hold onto my dreams and beliefs, it may one day be possible. But, I think my mom is right when she says I'm too "dan seun" but I'm happy and that's enough for me. Well, I don't think that there is anything in particular I am talking about here...just a thought about the world and I in general. There wasn't even anything that occured that prompted all of this...weird.

I've concluded that I have quite a few issues. HAHA (there I go again!)